My hands are doing that claw thing where they
get so cold that you can’t close your fingers together and that, along with a
thick, heavy wetsuit, makes paddling anywhere more mission than movement. Crossing my arms and hugging my numb paws
into my armpits just hurts, so I decide that holding them under the water and
keeping them out of the wind is a better idea.
The light is flat and grey and there is a band of rain being carried
towards me on the onshore wind; I watch the opaque curtain envelop the headland
a mile away and wonder what’s keeping me out here scratching around for
waist-high onshore mush? A small part of
me is secretly hoping that the angry bull seal who took up residence here last
winter, and who’s developed a reputation for bullying surfers back to the beach,
will turn up so that I have an excuse for catching a wave in.
I’m not living some sort of cold-water surf adventure right now; there
are no scenic mountains when I look inland, the beach isn’t covered in snow and
there are no killer whales cruising the line-up or bears stalking the shoreline. Just our territorial seal whose intentions
none of us are ever absolutely certain of when he surfaces within kicking
distance of one of us. But it’s plenty
cold enough and to be honest once your extremities are numb I’d argue that the
difference between the water temperature being 7 degrees and 5 degrees Celcius
isn’t noticeable, particularly once you factor in the wind-chill. Cold is cold, it’s as simple as that. And this is the reality for an awful lot of
surfers. Life isn’t one long boardshort
advert.
So what keeps so many of us in the sea for so long when often it’s
uncomfortable and not the most productive use of our time?
What is the “S” factor?
There’s a strong case for the argument that those surfers who you see
bobbing around the line-up on a distinctly average day in mid-winter, or
obsessively hopping from look-out spot to look-out spot searching for waves
just because it’s the weekend, have another thing driving them. It’s that little something that separates
them from the multitude of humans who have caught a wave at some point in their
life but not succumbed to the obsession and let it take control of their
day-to-day. It stands to reason; if
every person who learnt to stand up on a surfboard had this then the line-up
would be just as crammed on a dreary onshore morning in mid-winter as it is on
the sunniest day of the summer holidays.
But it’s not. It’s just the
select few who have mastered the ability to turn the key in the car door when
their hands are too cold to function properly or who often don’t get the
feeling back in their toes until the end of the evening news, long after dark
has fallen.
Take yourself as an example: Have
you ever made a decision where the dominant influence in your choice was
surfing? A big decision perhaps, like
where you live or what you do to earn a living?
Could you blame surfing for a less than desirable financial situation or
the break-up of a relationship? You see?
The simple answer would be to blame this sort of behaviour on some kind
of addictive behaviour trait. But that’s
too obvious to ring true. If that was
the answer then regular surfers would display those sorts of behaviours in other
areas of their lives, but the vast majority of us don’t. Some surfers are happy to forego daily surfs
unless the waves are actually good, preferring to survive off memories of
better waves and just to scratch the itch when absolutely necessary, on a
weekly or fortnightly basis when a new swell shows up on the charts. Others just have to get in as soon as there’s
a lump of water to paddle into; a bad surf is better than no surf sort of
attitude, regardless of how frustrating it is.
Call it stoke, call it sensation seeking, or scientifically attribute it
to varied levels of neurotransmitters such as dopamine, norepinephrine and
serotonin in surfers. Both dopamine and
serotonin help our brains to regulate mood and emotion, are responsible for
levels of arousal, and determine how we perceive reward. It has been put forward that many surfers
display behaviours indicative of heightened levels of dopamine, but whatever
it’s down to, regular surfers can’t seem to get enough of it in one way or
another which is why we keep going back.
The best things are often the most difficult to explain and we all have
our own reasons, so don’t worry that when somebody asks why you insist on
paddling out whilst everybody else retreats indoors to the comfort of their
favourite chair, you struggle to come up with an answer that comes anywhere
close to explaining why. You don’t have
to.
Author's note: This article first appeared on the Surf Simply Magazine on March 24th, 2015.
Author's note: This article first appeared on the Surf Simply Magazine on March 24th, 2015.